As I confessed in my previous blog entries, I get off track on my diet. I'm human. This past month, I've been trying to go to boot camp like normal and watch what I eat, but I've gotten off track. I have no one but myself to blame, but I definitely let circumstances get in my way.
All this month (except 1 week), my brother, niece & nephew have been in town. I went to see Fiona Apple in concert and went to a water park one day. Tonight, I'm going out with my husband and friends and it's our anniversary weekend (4 years!). I haven't been eating as great as I usually do, but luckily, as of 3 days ago, I had not gained any weight either.
I'm going to have fun and enjoy myself tonight, but starting ASAP, I'm getting back on my eating plan. Some promises I am making to myself: I will not change my boot camp schedule in the middle of the night to cancel the next days session (yes, I did that). I will think before I eat. I will not eat unnecessary sweets that come into the office.
I went to Anthropologie today to buy a top. Anthro is one of my favorite stores, next to Jcrew and Ann Taylor Loft. All of these stores have a problem. They do not stock certain sizes in the store. That's why I've been an avid online shopper for so many years.
Lately, I'm finding that I can fit into things at these stores. I've been wearing Ann Taylor and Jcrew tops for a while, but Anthropologie is one store that very few fits me. Until today. I went in today to check out what few XL tops I could find on sale. Now, I'm finding that the L tops are fitting me better than the XL tops. Sure every top is different, but this gave me a really great feeling. I'm starting to see changes in my body that I hadn't seen in a long time (since High School).
I'm noticing that I like my stomach. It's not flat and I'm def not skinny, but I see the improvement in it and I'm proud. My arms are SLOWLY getting smaller and when I flex I can see muscle that I can't remember seeing. I'm proud of these features because however imperfect they still are, I know what I did to get them. I know how hard I've been working and that's for me.
As I type this, my arms are aching because of all the weight reps we did on Thursday in class. While it sucks to be sore, it also is a reminder that I actually tried and I should be proud of myself.
That's all.
